Dear Granduncle Edmund..

This post is dedicated to my granduncle Edmund.Your finally home.

My mum called me up at 8 today and told me that a mild heart attack had stolen my granduncle Edmund last night.He was in the ICU in Bintulu.

Let me tell you a story.

I barely could remember my granduncle Edmund because at the time i was an infant.I was born in Kuching and stayed there for a year or so and my mum and dad stayed partly with granduncle Edmund and he took care of me as a kid.Then we came back to KL and I never saw him again.

Till last Christmas.

He was in KL to get an eye operation to get his cataracts removed and stopped by for Christmas.Goodness knows how,but when my aunty told him it was Jeremy he gave me a frail hug."Jeremy you've grown so much!"

He sat with his sister,my grandmother Katie.My grandmother preaching to him.He recollecting things to my grandmother.



Then,he sat with me.He actually took my hand and told me stories.So many stories.And he told it with the perfect English that so many of us lack nowadays.

He told me about how I was like in Bintulu as a baby.How it was like growing up with my grandmother and grandaunties.How the Japanese would steal my greatgrandmother's chickens.

He told me of all the wonders he had seen.How the world changed so much.How he dreamed of so many things he never thought would exist in his lifetime but had the privilage to see.How a person could be walking down the street and be able to speak to someone else so far away.Such a charming man.He was so happy to be able to see again after the cataracts were removed.

Then when I came back to AIMST my mum called to say he was diagnosed with stomach cancer.On Friday my dad said he had a heartattack and was in the ICU.Today he was home.

Things happen so fast.Those were my last memories of him.Barely just 2 months from this post I met him.And I wanted to meet him again.So many things I wanted to ask.So many questions.

Maybe God gave him sight so he could see the world one last time.That I could meet him one last time.

Dear granduncle Edmund I love you.I'm so glad I had the pleasure to meet you.I say a prayer that I will see you again when my time comes.

My clarity...

Surprisingly I had a moment of clarity in my lecture today.Computer applications in biotechnology was the lecture and as Dr.Devanai was going on and on about NCIB and BLAST and comparing protein samples on an online database I received it.Clarity.The clarity that I was in the line I wanted to be.

I always asked myself, what if I had made a mistake submitting to my mum's decision that law was unprofitable.Or abandoning my high school passion for dentistry.Or giving up my dream of becoming a stand-up comedian.Far-fetched as that may have been.

But listening to my lecturer rant and realising i was loving it.Understanding it.I realised maybe i had done the right thing.

I've had many crazy tendencies when it came to career decisions.I even had an inkling to join the cloth as a priest.Laugh.I know you're thinking it.Haha.

But sometimes it's the moments of clarity that re-assure you you're on the road that has your name spelled at the end.Those precious moments,fleeting as it maybe.Wether it's clarity that you're with the one you're supposed to be with.That you're where you're supposed to be at.

Tomorrow I'm going to wake up unsure.Insecure with the decisions I've made.The clarity all but spent.But that's where eACH of us has to reach deep down and clutch to the clarity we receive.Wether it's a perceived gift from God.Perhaps it's His reassurance that you're doing okay.Or for you atheists perhaps we're sub-conciously giving ourselves a pat on the back.

Classes start in an hour and a half.My insecurities are creeping back into cognition.

I'm just glad clarity stopped by like a lost love.Stopped,had tea,gave me a pat on the head.And disappeared again.

John Mayer's solo is coming up for Gravity on Winamp.

Perfect :)

Cocktails made easy...

So i get a call at 1 A.M and its and old 'bud askin me for a good drink mix.And then I realised its been so long since i mixed a good drink myself.Apparently he was having problems with the 'missus so to speak and needed to wash that down.I suggested some good bourbon neat followed by one on the rocks.Rinse and repeat.And then i mused as to the last time i had a good mix.Definitely not here that's for sure.Prolly with my 'unc when i went over for a visit to D.C.

So a list then of good drinks you have to try at least once and receipe's if you can actually find the possible ingrediants.My fave would definitely have to be JD and coke.Easy to make and easy to find here.Hell I'll take anything bourbon.Prefer Bourbon Whiskey over Scotch for the distinctive taste.Famous bourbon's include Jack Daniels and it's counterpart Gentleman Jack,Jim Bean,...alah you know the rest.A good choice of Scotch would be Chivas Regal or Johnnie Walker regardless of the label.The difference?Bourbon whiskey is made from fermented corn and Scotch from fermented malt or Barley.Another personal fave would be Dewar's White Label.Not to pricey but still good unlike the more popular economical Thai Song or Club 99 (Let us spend a moment of silence for those unfortunate souls and livers tainted).

Now for some real cocktails.My personal fave would be a Manhattan 2:1.Two parts whiskey to one part vermouth.The secret to a Manhattan is sweet vermouth but I'm not putting a receipe cus' who the hell knows where to get vermouth in KL anyways?Never tried getting one in Kl either so if anyone has,let me in on where.To be more specific i like a Dry Manhattan with dry vermouth instead of sweet vermouth which(sigh)I've only had the pleasure of having twice.

Another simple one would be a Whiskey Sour.
2-3 pks of whiskey (your choice bourbon or scotch)
Juice from 1/2 a lemon
A lil' syrup (water and sugar)
A cherry
1/2 a slice of lemon

With ice is good.Especially if you savour the sourness.But DISCLAIMER:Take the drink SLOWLY.

My own variation would be:
Lime syrup(F&N syrup for better effect)with water frozen in an ice cube tray
2 pks of bourbon whiskey (preferably Jack Daniels)
A lil' Syrup (secukup rasa mengikut cita rasa masing-masing)
1/2 a lemon (No need for cherry.MAHAL!)

Blend 2-3 cubes then add the ingrediants and there you have it.Malaysianised whiskey sour courtesy of F&N.

The last would be a Mojito.Especially good if you need to chill.Its basically rum,mint and lime.I don't do rum well so don't ask me what type of rum but yeah it's good.
2-3 pk's of rum
1 tsp of lime juice
1 tsp sugar
Mint leaves (or if u haven't got it mint syrup)
Some soda water (again secukup rasa)

Put juice and sugar into a glass and stir until its mostly dissolved. Rub mint leaves on the inside of the glass and discard em'. Fill the glass with crushed ice and rum. Top it with soda water and garnish with a sprig of mint.

NOTE:Mint syrup is shit with whiskey or on its own with any alcohol.Ugh I've tried that once for New Years Eve 2006 if I'm not mistaken(Trinna if you remember.Heh)and some one brought mint syrup along with all the other stuff.I remember someone won a few crates of beer(Yue Fern I think?)Absolut,Jack Daniels,etc,Mint Syrup?and some chinese alcohol in the lil' gourd bottle?Bad memories.

Well that's my top three.Notable mentions are a Bloody Mary for the curious.That pretty much reminded me of a vegetarians drink with the tomato juice and the serving with a celery stick in the glass thing.

AND after watching numerous episodes of Scrubes J.D's favourite drink.An Appletini.I have no idea what that is and I'm wondering if any bars or clubs have that in KL but im guessing its a martini with apple syrup.Looks like Absinthe so if you guys wanna' impress the ladies but don't have the stones for Absinthe then by all means.Then again Absinthe is illegal here so if any lady actually believes your drinking Absinthe.Well she's a keeper! :)

Have fun people.

Sila menonton episode Thirsty Travel seterusnya pada waktu dan tempat yang sama.Hanya di Discovery:Mengembara dan Hidup.




CHEERS!! (or in the spirit of CNY YAMMMM SEEEENNGGGG!!!!!)

I love kermit the frog..

I swear it's been so long since ive seen Kermit the frog on tv.Or the Cookie Monster.And watching this clip on youtube of Kermit getting pawned by this kid.Well it just made my day.Sniff childlike innocence.Where have we all gone wrong?

A,B,C,D,E,F, COOKIE MONSTER!!! =)

Man i miss the muppets...



And the end when she goes "I love you"...
Wonder if that works when I'm late for class..

EDIT:Turns out there's another clip of Kermit and Joey(the lil' girl) counting to twenty.And the best part is when the kid forgets th enext number and compliments Kermit.Owh god im turning into a sap.Must be Jaya Catering food.Damn you AIMST curry.

The little things..

Well it all started with my roomate spring cleaning.So he was sweeping to the door so i opened up the room door for him.And out of the blue he pauses and sweeps under my table and bed too.

Now you see that got me thinking.How much we under appreciate some people.I mean i had this sudden surge of gratitude for this guys lil' effort.We barely say a word and he's my only roommate.But hell that was a real powerful gesture.Going out of your way to do someone a favor that they didn't even ask for.

Then i started thinking back.How many times have i bitched about how he never closes the room window net and let the lil' green sonsobitches bugs get in.Or picking the oddest times to use the LAN connection.And guilt is a feeling that lingers girls and boys and appears when you least expect it.

Perhaps I'll stand up for the guy more.People here in AIMST can be mean.Poor roommate has a fake Facebook account set up to humiliate him with people writing all manner of nasty shit.Thats just bad.These are medic people for pete's sake.Deep down I can relate to the guy.I used to be the fat,bullied kid too.You know it sucks to be picked on 'cause your social skills suck.Sucks to have people judge you for being a loner.Though i had a growth spurt and lost all the baby fat in highschool but deep down you never lose the fat nerd inside.

I guess sometimes you have to go out of your way to do someone a favor.You never know how much of an effect it has on that person.How much it can provoke the mind.

Am i gonna be lonely for the rest of my life..

NOTE:First post of the year. AND IT'S EMO! HAH!

The song Come Around by Rhett Miller begs the question."Am i gonna be lonely for the rest of my life?"And the next line reiterates that fact."I'm gonna be lonely for the rest of my life."Loved that song,from an episode of Scrubs too no surprises there.



Haven't been posting much but poems are hard to come by during finals. Unlike CA I'm not having emo moments. Rather panic attacks. I've barely slept for weeks already getting less than 4 hours of sleep,mostly waking in cold sweat expecting the worst for exams.The only good sleep being during the 5-6 days break in between papers.

So i was repeatedly listening to this song as i fell asleep (apparently in a sleep deprived daze i deleted all the songs in my Shuffle cept' for this one)i asked myself.Hmm am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life.

Wow and everyone knows how i love these 'understand thyself' questions. Ironically i found myself hopelessly agreeing. Perhaps it's my emo scorpio self rearing its sulky head. And i know a lot of people who would beg to differ on me being lonely. No you I am not a manwhore. But i found myself agreeing and wholeheartedly too. Do i have a problem with being lonely for the rest of my life?

Perhaps.What would Dr.Cox say?

"(High pitched whistle)Hey Susie were going to the bar for whiskey. No chatty-chatty just drinky-drinky".

I need a stiff one.Ugh.And a whipping boy that i can give girly names too.

Twas the night before Christmas..

Twas the night before Christmas and all through the house,
Not a creature was stirring not even a mouse,

But Jeremy lay awake for some unknown damn reason,
Perhaps it was the headache during this hangover season,

Then an omnious rumble pulled him out from his bed,
Twas the sound of a tummy that prayed to be fed,

To the kitchen he went as the floor seemed to spin,
Damn you whiskey,damn you wine,and damn most of all gin,

The refrigerator door open and lo and behold,
The turkey was finished the stuffing was mold,

Then a noise from the hall creeped the fuck out of Jeremy,
Can't be Santa he thought there ain't no stupid chimmney,

Tiptoe down to the hall and he paused to think,
A strange clicking sound was the lock being picked?,

Should i give the police an emergency call?,
Nah the Rempits are out for a holiday ball,

So he rolled up a newspaper his natural reaction,
The New Straits Times was hardly a weapon, perhaps a distraction,

He pounced on the Christmas tree from two stairs above,
He blushed as he saw two cicaks making love,

"I'm sorry" he said as he quickly withdrew,
Even lizards need their privacy too,

And he went back to bed cursing under his breath,
He intruded on sex instead of preventing a theft,

And just as he slept with AIMST in his mind,
Santa came and left a present behind,

In the morning for Jeremy lay under the tree,
Wasn't the gift he was hoping for Miss Belinda Chee (from 8tv),

A note and some 100 plus in place of a toy,
Merry Christmas!This is for the hangover,boy!. Love Santa.

Merry Christmas everyone and a Happy New Year!

The fairness of life..

Why are there those that cry,
Why do sudden feelings die,

And yet you are a comfort in the snow.

Why are there those who stay hungry at night,
An unknown voice unheard in plight,

Yet you are always listening.

Wandering souls seen always lost,
Wrought with pain they bear the cost; mistakes in life they bear,

Yet you are there.

Why are not all babies allowed to live,
So young but lives surrendered to give; away for no one,

Yet you take them home.

The crying mother weeps for her son,
The worried son has come undone,

Yet you have the answers.

If I am as good a man as I am told,
Then why do i always face the cold; like i am now,alone.

Yet your heart I will make a home.

Starfucks..my home away from home...

Yup a monk with a laptop in Starfuck's.Interpret that all you want.
So here my consumer ass is parked.In a starbucks in Village Mall.Yes it is as pathetic as it sounds.Yet it contains two places that remind me of home.F.O.S (Oh god i know) and starbucks.Yes Dark Cherry Mocha Frappucino reminds me of home.Mmm a few more weeks and I'll finally be back.

And with my mum's operation and all,Christmas music and coffee is so comforting.

My home away from home.Well like i alway say little things make me happy.So here's a couple.

1)I paid 2 bucks less for 2 frapucino's!
2)I found someone else born on the same day as me!
3)I'm getting new headphones to replace the broken one's for my Ipod.
4)I have no class tommorrow.
5)Arsenal are afloat.
6)My friend will be in KL for christmas!!
7)I discovered I have a latent HEROES like power to make me fit in anywhere.(Ooops credit to the all knowing Aimee of wonderment and Lordship of the Universe.Anything else you devious women?)

Ahh..Life is beautiful..

Summer Song

This is a great song by this new band i discovered,Wavorly.
Awesome song.

And to miss nymphomaniac turkey.Please pay attention! *smiles*

Summer Song - Wavorly

Smile =)

I really liked this cus as they say smiles are contagious and please tell me you didnt smile watching this..I dare ya =)

Smile!!!

(Pray for me.I drank 2 cups of coffee and am studyin my nuts off)

Fight Club...

Fight Club..
What a movie.I'd write a review.But i doubt it would do justice.
Watch it is all i can say...Because no reviewer can ever do justice to it..

Never have i ever watched a movie that had nihilism or existentialism painted so perfectly. I could not take my eyes of it.Except to pause between dialogues to digest a sentence that seems to speak straight at my beliefs. And then have a short discussion on who i'd hit with a fellow anarchist. (Thanks for intro-in the movie by the way you Ocd-in insomniac)

How can a catholic accept views of existentialism and nihilism? I have yet to find an answer for that. But I'm looking.

Words just seem to spring out at me.Cigarette burns. Bitch tits.Space monkeys.

Experience Mayhem people.

-It is when you lose everythig,that you can do anything-

Tyler Durden

The rain...

So here I am in the library right? And I’m supposed to be studying. And then it starts to pour. And the lil’ artistic side of me that has been repressed for ages. Well he got a hold of me and hacked his way out.

So exhibit A:


And exhibit B:


Yeah I'm not on top of my game in th editing department but i think this deserves an entry into my ancient deviant art account.

On a side note. I'm starting on a new book. The title? On Evil by Adam Morton. Seems to hold the promises of a few occupied days here in AIMST as everyone leaves for the Deepavali hols. It has this to say on the back "Evil occurs when internal mental barriers against it break down". Very promising.

Sigh.I miss my weekend in Penang.

Out of the mundane...

Hmm...After what seemed like years i got out of AIMST and shuffled of to penang..
how can i describe the trip in a word?COMFORTIN!! Takes a long trip to get your mind of things.

And believe me when that damned ferry chugged of the mainland. I felt like Columbus heading of to the new world. A free man.

Truly the closest thing to kl. This Penang is.All the inflated ego's. (I got passed by a Ferarri,how many of those do you see in Kedah). All the urban rudeness. But in a way its comfortin. I was born and bred with that beating in my veins. The paddy field over here must be gettin to me.

More later..

In AIMST...

Haven't been posting a while people. But I'm finally doin my degree of choice. Woot! AIMST is a real nice uni.Brand new too but kind aout of the way. I mean seriously out of the way. No clubs, no shit. But hey its big and its real nice. Compared to all the ipta bullshit you see around. Owh and people say a prayer for Teresa Kok. Damn this ISA bull crap.

Woot Spain..

Well as sad as it is thet Italy are out I'm glad Spain are in the finals...
Owh it's good seein Fabregas tearin up the field.I cant wait to see his form in the EPL!!

Man i can just imagine if Arsene Wenger actually could manage to get David Villa over. What a combo!!

Hmm well it's wierd being single again. I'm definitely not used to it. But i guess its nice to be a bachelor again. A big thank you to Alwin for reminding me how nice it is to a bachelor again. (But dude you don't count ur taken!!)Cant balme her.She was going through a tough time and needed time alone. I respect that.

Hmm............Sigh.............

Owh well i wish uni would start soon!I wish i had gotten a better course in IPTA. A degree in forest conservation in Sabah is just a waste of my time. So im goin to AIMST and man i can't wait. I hear its eal nice but why does the intake have to be so far away. September!!!And im too lazy to go job huntin. Hmm. Sucks seein everyone bein so busy wit uni or jobs. Maybe to much freedom is never a good thing..

Italy and Romania...

WHat can i say it was a good game.I already predicted a 1-1 draw.But i didn't expect to see Buffon so GOOD!!Props to him.He saved and salvaged what was left of the Azurri's chances in Euro.And it was a mighty fine save.A lil' bit of skill and a lil' bit of luck. Wat a spectacular game.

Owh and UPU results out on Wednesday so i hear.All i can do is hope for the best.

Embarrasment...

She walked into the men's bathroom...
And i walked into the women's bathroom...
At the exact same moment...

If that's not ESP at its finest i don't know what is...

Mi Amour Ti Amo La Belle...

Hols coming to an end...

Well my hols are coming to an end...

Hopefully i do get into local U. If not I'm just as clueless as to where to go next.Kinda worried of course since everyone seems to be doing their degre already and i haven't even started.Owh please i hope i get into Local U and end this big headache.Hmm things are not all that simple anymore.Everyone just wants something from me and i just wish i could be left alone.You know the feeling.Sigh.

Mum will be coming back tomorrow so there goes me and my dad's bachelor week.It was fun.My dad was more of a roomy this week than a dad so it was real fun.Now comes the next big prolem.Car shoppin hopefully with my mum before uni.And hopefully my mum won't think i don't need one after all the hard work i put in making her think otherwise.And fuel prices are up!!

Geez...

Well if u attendd any of Anwar Ibrahim's campaign speches he seems to have a lot o solutions for that.Hmm going to be a very interesting political year for us.

Asian 9-Ball Pool Championship...

Well finally back from Genting..
Was a very good trip..We reached in time to watch the final match and woohoo I got on ESPN. Snuck behind the commentator. Hopefully that gets aired. Then walked around and of course a drinking session at night. Over all it was a really good trip..

Big thanks to Alwin for the room..and for Vivek and Su Wen for coming! Though i have to say payin 500 bucks for that kind of service and room is a rip-off..



Championship finals..



Fooling around at night...



Again fooling around..



Cable car view..